On Voyeurism and Jealousy

I'm not sure exactly when I began to enjoy watching. Thinking back now, I wonder if it was my naive 18-year-old self in her first "threesome," which I put in quotations because it was really more the fellow with one girl while the other girl watched, with no interaction between females.  It was hardly three people participating at any one time. 6Perhaps it was watching a … [Read more...]

Ice Cream

He had been watching her. As the boat floated across the ocean on this transatlantic voyage, he found himself noticing a girl.  He never saw her twice the same day, and never anywhere but up on the deck near the 24 hour ice cream machines.  One day he saw her after dinner, one day at ten in the morning.  It was so very random, and odd the way she constantly grabbed his … [Read more...]

Not Gone But A Little Forgotten

I have a trigger.  I hate using that word, since it brings to mind the watered-down version of today's culture, which seems to mean I got uncomfortable or had my feelings hurt. No. I mean the word as it used to be used.  A series of specific physical stimuli can create a panic response in me, to the point of a legitimate panic attack.  We discovered it by accident, as one … [Read more...]

Why I Struggle With, “Let’s Not Label This”

I was chatting with a friend recently and we ended up on a bunny trail, unsurprisingly. "That's why there's no rush to put labels on things," she concluded her monologue as I nodded along, despite the call being audio only. Labels are such a touchy thing.  We seem to be at a point where we are so adamant that we don't want to get put into boxes, we forget that labeling … [Read more...]

The Ethics Of Talking About Our Problems

One of the things I love about my local community is how active the Telegram network is.  I see this as both wonderful and full of potential pitfalls. We have the opportunity to get to know each other really well and have split off groups for specific interests - foodies, gamers, littles, pets, crafters, poly people, kink-adjacent vending, an event hub, and more additional … [Read more...]